Being a grown up means stress being your middle name. You are running from from here to there trying to do everything at once. Pay the bills, pick up your dry cleaning , keep your special one happy and pampered and on top of that, try not to lose your peace of mind. The end result is a zillion of people with raised BP issues, heart problems and other health issues. All because of stress of doing it all.
Being a married woman with a big family, an infant and an understanding (but sometimes childish) husband means a whole lot of hard work for me. I am trying to do dozens of things at once, whilst trying to keep everyone happy and trying not to break down under the pressure. The end result; nothing I do is perfect , everything is haphazardly done and I , personally, suffer emotionally. It was one of those days when my emotions got the better of me and I shed a few tears that my husband gave me some advice. “Its always about the priorities. Prioritize things and do them one by one. No one is perfect. Do one thing at a time and I know you will do it perfectly.”
It got me thinking, does everyone get to chose their priorities? Or am I one of the few who gets this option. I mean, I have seen people who are trying to make ends meet round the clock. I have seen people do two jobs just to feed their family even though they don’t like either of the jobs. Do they have an option of doing one thing at a time? There is so much of poverty and hunger in this world and here I am worrying over cooking, studying , feeding, etc.. There are wars going on, people dying of diseases unknown . The world is bigger than you and I . So lets take a break and be thankful that you are alive, healthy and happy in this world.
When we were kids, we always said ” Damn, I can’t wait to grow up, have a life of my own. No parents to nag me, money of my own , blah blah blah.”
Well, reality check people, growing up isn’t a cake walk. We said all those things as we were in the illusion that grown up life is freaking amazing with no worries. But the truth is that , we have been in a cocoon made by our parents till we are teenagers, and then BAM…. we are sent to the real world!!
I always thought being a man was tuff, seeing my father take care of our entire family and others as well. Being the man of the house is a huge responsibility. But slowly, when I grew up , it hit me that NO!! Being a woman is arduous. I mean, there will be no family if there is no woman in the house. How will the man be the man of the house if there is no woman in his life? Growing up taught me this. Now , when I look at my mom all I see is her strength, her resilient attitude and her smile which is so assuring that nothing seems impossible. Will I be able to be the same when I attain her position?
Can we be like our parents, our role models when we reach that stage? Will our kids look up to us like how we look up to our parents when we grow up? I realised it is only after suffering on our own do we realise what all our parents must have been through. Why is it that we humans only realise things when we go through it all ourselves? Is it the procedure of finally growing up? If so, how much do we have to go through to finally grow up? Is there a limit to growing up or is it an ongoing process?
Whatever it might be, growing up is an experience which comes with time. I hope we all grow up some day and we have smiles on our faces when we do.
What makes you believe in something or someone? What is the force which drives within you to keep faith and moving forward?
Love, friendship, trust are some of the emotions which have no evidence. How will you explain to someone why you love them ? How shall you put forward your case as to why you blindly trust someone? Do you have a strong evidence of the same? I think not.
Some things are left on belief. Some things are better left unsaid. How else would you explain the phenomena of “Love at first sight”. Or what some people call the “Gut feeling”. There are certain things in life which you can’t explain and you have no evidence of . A child does’t need proof that his mother loves him. When a woman agrees to marry a man, there is no solid proof about his intentions but she goes with it. Emotions just exist , just like vacuum. No one has seen vacuum but it exists. There ain’t any cogent evidence but still the human race thrives on love. Thats how powerful love can be. Love comes in many for, be it friends , family or your soulmate. You just need to take the leap of faith.
You know that feeling when you think, “Screw this shit, I am done!!”
I am sure you all do. We all have that feeling time and again.So I am going to elaborate on that feeling today.
I have been away for a long duration from my blog and I am appalled that I have not yet lost my followers!! You all are great by the way !! So, coming back to that feeling. I have been working in the corporate sector for a while now. Apart from the few good friends I have made and the salary that gets credited in my account at the end of every month, its palpable that “Screw this shit, I am done” comes to my mind frequently. That feeling when you do everything meticulously and still get a mouthful is beyond my understanding. I am sure all those who “work”, no matter where they work , will relate to what I am talking about.
Then comes that feeling outside work. As if at work wasn’t enough. Life just throws it all at you, expecting you to scoop and dive and jump like an all-rounder olympic champion all at once. Sounds like fun!! Outside work, it’s people expecting you to be brave and shine at every step in your life. You cannot always be bright and shiny. There are days when you are dark and sulky and just want to be that ay for a while. But God forbid you get peace!! People (friends and family whom I do love with all my heart) say stuff like “Buck up!!” “Get over it” “Cummon, you have been through worse” “Dont get down just because you had a bad day at work”
Well, I am no GOD. I have human feelings and at times like these I do have feelings like asking everyone to “Shut the hell up!” “Let me be” oh, not to forget sometimes to smash my computer on someones head!! I am sure most of you will comprehend with that feeling the most.
There is always a confusion amongst us human beings about the concept of want and need. I am no expert myself but I did ponder over it and would like to share my thoughts with you as well.
So a child is crying . He fell down from his bed and is hurt. He wants comfort but he needs his mother. There is a difference. If his sister or brother comes and picks him up and hugs him, he would stop crying but he would be totally fine internally only by his mother.
A young teenager is feeling lonely and upset. She wants company. Her friends give her company but she needs a companion. She needs a boyfriend. She wants love just like any other teenager across this world.
A man wants a successful career , money and family. What he needs is support and love from his friends and family to achieve it all.
Lets come to me. What I want is to become a famous author and touch millions of hearts like my favourite authors did : J K Rowling, Jane Austen, Cassandra Clare, E L James, Leo Tolstoy, etc. What I need is not too different in this case. I need to write and write. Write everything that comes to my mind. Edit it again and again. Re-read it . Thats what I need to do to get what I want.
So do what you need to get what you want! Or do what you want to get what you need !! Its still confusing.